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Charlie Kirk, a name some may not have known until September 10th, 2025.

For me, Charlie was someone who I watched nearly every day. I was so intrigued by his discussions and debates, how he so strongly conveyed his beliefs and respectfully had open dialogue and debates with those who had opposing beliefs. As a fellow Christian I wanted to hear what he had to say, the truth he spoke rang so true to me. I wanted to be able to speak with such intelligence and certainty and kindness if I was presented with the opportunity to be in a situation where I could plant a seed of truth and faith in someone. I could see how his faith guided every conversation he had. The ability to share the truth and most importantly the truth within the Bible to those who didn't know and didn't believe in anything. The seeds he was planting in those who needed to hear God's word the most is one of the many reasons I was absolutely devastated to see the news of "Charlie Kirk Gets Shot on College Campus." It did not feel real, I was shaken, in utter shock, in disbelief. I thought certainly America is banning together and praying so hard a miracle happens, he will be okay...to find out he didn't make it was gut wrenching. I couldn't stop crying for days, I still can't think about it too hard or the water works stream down.

I didn't even know how I could feel such strong emotion from a man dying that I have never met, but I knew it was different...he wasn't just a man I have never met - he was a man proclaiming God as our Savior, standing up for truth in a society that is so twisted and upside down and feels so far from what God intended. He was a symbol of everything I believe in, and wanted for our country and my family and my husband and all the things. I look at beautiful Erika Kirk, so smart, strong, mother, all the things and Charlie a man standing up for the values of a virtuous marriage. Everything in this culture dilutes marriage, it makes it sound boring and dull and a prison sentence quite honestly. There is such a level of disrespect that is expecting when speaking about marriages, movies, shows, all of modern entertainment showing that it's not important, framing it as being with one person the rest of your life, how boring. When in fact, marriage is one of the most beautiful things I have ever experienced. It is life giving, it's exactly what God wanted for us. Everything God wants and intends for us is better than we can imagine, but our secular society tears it apart, makes it less than and purposefully depicts God's design as a horrible thing. Charlie standing up for family values, keeping the family together and building strong families gave me such hope that our world would see family as a beautiful blessing once again. I couldn't help but compare my little family to his when this tragedy struck, a fellow Miss USA sister, her baby boy being just days older than my baby boy, a husband who she had the sweetest love story with - I saw them in me so much. I'll never get over the devastation that was Charlie's assassination. To me this is so much bigger than someone who also skewed the republican party. This is a spiritual war, it was an attack on christian beliefs, values, and God's word.

• Ephesians 6:12 "For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms"

  
  

Just as Charlie did, I want everyone to experience faith and a God who is just and merciful and loving. Life is so much better when you live it as God intended you to and that is what Charlie wanted people to understand.

All I know is that this was a life altering moment. First it was the sadness, the anger, but then it was more than that it was a heavy weight of what do we do now. All I knew to do was turn to my Bible, I opened it and started from the beginning. On september 11th, 2025 I decided I am going to read this from start to finish. Don't get me wrong, I studied scripture in school, I was raised christian, I even went to christian schools my whole life, I have ebbed and flowed in my faith, some years being more on fire than others. For weeks leading up to this I thought about how I want to dig deeper in my spiritual journey. Having had a baby felt like I put all my time into him and I kept making excuses as to why I couldn't even do as little as read one devotional a day. Until this moment, a light was reignited in me. There's no more excuses. The devil was working overtime putting distraction after distraction in front of me to delay my growth, my passion, my love for Christ and keeping me from God's blessings on my life. To see the impact Charlie's passing has had on christians, non christians, and 100's of thousands of people globally is awe inspiring, and you can't tell me that's not an act of God.

• John 12:24: "Truly, truly, I say to you, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds."

As a mother, there is really no greater purpose than instilling faith among your kids. Erika Kirk said it so eloquently in her speech. I look at her and see a beacon of hope and a bright light to carry this movement forward.

• Proverbs 22:6: "Train up a child in the way he should go; even when he is old he will not depart from it."

• 3 John 1:4 "I have no greater joy than to hear that my children are walking in the truth."

• Proverbs 31:28 "Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her."

  
  

I hope I continue to see my fellow lukewarm Christians be reignited alongside me. I hope to see those who didn't know Jesus or were unsure continue to come to Him. The time is now and we can't be quiet about our beliefs any more. Plant the seeds in those around you, and pray over them. Let's make heaven crowded.